28th may, thursday

i just got this bloggie a couple of days ago, so its not that posh yet. today was horrible. i went out with joshua, and then tension was so thich a butcher's knife wouldnt be able to cut through it. i hardly said 100 words to him, and i could tell he didnt like that. oh well. so we watched 'confessions of a teenage drama queen'. it was cool and all. all i thought about during the movie was to hold joshua's hand. so i wasnt really concentrating. heh. didnt hold in the end tho.

we parted after the movie, and thats when all the tension became greater. i was confiding in my sister and sherlyn` on my thoughts and feelings. i had wanted the relationship annulled, so sherlyn` helped me to talk to joshua. so she helped me get it annulled and all. things became a little awkward and i regretted that decision immediately after sherlyn` sent that sms.

this was what i was afraid of. making mistakes in decision in the relationship. and i just changed something big. shucks. feel damn lousy now.